Outrage!

I noticed a lot of people are using their image to represent themselves. Image is definitely important, but it can never be compared to the essence of that person him/herself. What I am talking about is the personality! People just go overboard with their outlooks, heavy make-ups, hair styling (which takes half an hour to an hour) and for some metrosexual men, even the smallest pimple on their faces will make their day awry. Is that all there is in life? Well, first thing to blame is the mass media; the society forming the new people of today. Countless advertisements, live shows on fashion and superstars, turning everyone's focus towards the limelight. Everyone desires to be a star now! The problem arises when they do not think about themselves, they forget what is their main purpose in their lives and try to be like these "superstars", losing themselves gradually.

Further talking deeper into these, there really are those people who are so desperate in their lives. Money, a partner. Well, for money, if they'd work hard for it, they receive what they get. For a partner, I certainly do not agree about this "desperate need". It's just a futile effort to get something you don't have. It comes naturally, well maybe not, it needs some effort. And here are these shallow people who desperately wants one, to the extent that they voice it out!? What else do they have in their mind? This is society's pressure after all, peer pressure to be exact. The term "Losing face" is so widely used nowadays. Everyone wants to be stylish, wants to have what other have. Basically it is "to have"; what the society has molded our minds to think of. Corruption is everywhere, every corner, every mind.

What I'm saying about this is that outlook, desires for someone, something, isn't a bad thing after all. As long as it is not overdone. Yea, I guess that applies to me too in a way.

False dreams.

It was an awesome service when it first came out, but the things they do, it keeps getting worse. The apartment I'm living in decided to cut it because of it's incompetency in services and changed to a different one. Boy, I did not regret that. But this bill comes back as a ghost to haunt us. We cut the service early March but they asked us to pay for the whole March service, so it's okay, we paid. And then, another bill came today (April). Thanks to my housemate who paid late, but it's okay really, the bad thing is, they charged us rm154 instead of the rm77. It seems that they have counted the Febuary payment as well. We paid the Febuary payment late but we did pay it, and it seems that their system or management did not count it. So i'd say, what the fuck is this? Screw them man.

Poems

Did some poems for assignment. I guess it'll be a waste after sending them in right?

Standing there

Standing there

Green, brown and yellow

He who made you

Pleasant to the eye.

Dry, wet,

Cold and hot,

Shielding those who needed

Without favor returned.

Still people forget,

And walked past you,

Without gratitude

Or care.

But you stood there

Tall and strong,

Giving them life;

Looking at them

With only the purest intentions.

Lost essence

A soul mentioned,

Unknown of identity,

Not recognizable,

Often left unattended,

Hollow on the outside.

Masks to hide in pretense,

And shells to shield in,

An essence wasted,

Into the deepest depths of the heart,

To protect the delicacy of emotions.

This identity,

The warmth that is lost to humanity,

Their true self, their honesty,

Like summer breezes,

Soft and warm to the heart.

I wish to witness

This sublime emotion of human beings.

Unforgiven

Forgive is the greatest gift in the world

That’s what people say

But what is this burning feeling?

That never subsides

Deep in my heart

You

Whom I gave everything

And left nothing for myself

Entrusting you my hopes

And dreams

All I wanted is gratitude

Nothing more

But everything I received

From you

Disappoints me

You take

Never return

Leaving me

With nothing

But myself

Arabica.

Went to Black Kanyon coffee house that day when i was in Ipoh. Yea, I'm pretty outdated with Ipoh stuff nowadays. Alright so I just went in and looked at the menu. I can't drink highly concentrated coffee; it makes me feel dizzy and this coffee named Arabica "something" caught my attention. Costs me Rm8++, quite cheap really but when the thing comes, i was surprised to look at the size of it. I'm bad at photography so it looks rather big in the picture, but I can finish the whole cup with two big gulps. They don't give sugar for the coffee but honey instead. When i take a sip, I understood why it's that small in size. The taste is really strong, the sweetness of the honey comes in first, followed by the bitterness of the coffee leaving a trail of coffee and honey scent in your mouth. Second impression was, 'Hey! This is good!'. The first? It's 'God this is small!'. The surprising thing about it is, I didn't get dizzy after the drink. In case you're wondering what's that with the cup of coffee, it's scented tea, a cup of honey and some biscuits. Never liked the biscuits though, you can just see it by it's looks. This drink here makes me wanna try 'kopi ais' once again!

Near the edge

I believe everyone dislike exams. Well, some to the extent of hating them too. I guess I'm between dislike and hate. There's never enough time, never enough brain juice for them. Here I am at the brink of sanity, freaking out, panicking; wondering how it's gonna turn up. Been back from hometown to KL, to face it once and for all. These days i grow tired and more afraid of examinations, maybe because of my slacking attitude. Well, things are never easy in life.

Well, staying at home makes me lazy, i don't know why myself. Been at home for a few days and it's been a vacation. I did not work on anything and just went out for food, food and food. One day I'm gonna be that fat man on the couch (haha). But I won't let that happen.

Besides that, there are so many things in life to think about, to be proud of too (heh). First thing I'm proud of is my pc (:p). It would be something usual for lot's of people but upgrading a pc by hand, it was my first experience not so long ago, and it turned out good! Overclocked it, changed the hardware, this and that, thanks to this good friend of mine helping me out.

I guess I'm contented with life. I have everything I need. There are things i wanted, but it is just 'want' and I don't really need it so, I can cope with that. Dreams are something good too, if the dream is realistic enough. Damn, am I bored or what.